Sometimes, I’d Rather *Not* Be Writing

“Don’t like to write, but like having written.”

~Frank Norris (or someone)

I’ve heard this quote time and again; I’ve used this quote many times. It’s just so true of every writer I know. We have writing sprints, we reward ourselves after the act, we tweet our word count.

Writing is hard. As writers, we have a deep passion and love for it. We study the craft, respect the process (whatever that is for us individually), but in the end, we want to have a body of work to show for showing up.

I’ve written on this blog about how I make myself produce writing every day (or at least I try to) and my success. I know now what works for me, but lately, writing hasn’t come so easily.

I had surgery in December and, in January, was hospitalized with sepsis. I spent eight days in and out of 105 degree fever, tired and weak, and unsure if I was even going to make it. I pulled through, in no small part because of support and love from my family and support and prayers from my writing friends here. The only reason I’m sharing this story with you is because after, writing got hard.

I didn’t feel good and I didn’t care about what my characters were doing. I was a quarter of the way through my third 1950s novella and progress didn’t trickle down, it came to a full stop. As I got better and stronger, I didn’t have any desire to pick up where I left off. I wanted to read, to watch television, and to crochet. I almost started to believe my illness had broken something inside of me.

Don’t worry about me, I’m getting my writing mojo back. Last month I began to critique and write again, and I’m forgiving myself for low word counts and the I-don’t-wanna attitude. Because, the thing is, I don’t. But, man, I love to have written. So, now I get it out of the way in the morning. I show up, sometimes in 15-minute increments, pound out some words, and get it out of the way.

Have you ever suffered through anything that seemed to steal your desire to write (or do something else that you love)? Tell me how you recovered and if and how you made your way back.

About Lori Sizemore

Lover of nail polish, pens, her Kindle, and fresh coffee. She likes romance filled with messy, real characters and lots of snarky banter. Reading was (and still is!) her BFF; when she discovered writing she fell in love. Come for the snark. Stay for the story.
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6 Responses to Sometimes, I’d Rather *Not* Be Writing

  1. Beth says:

    Yes!! Right now. I am forcing myself to write yet discouraged at the same time because my writing time has dwindled to nothing!!! 🙁

  2. Totally! Trying to get our house ready for sale and to find a new house is sapping every last reserve of creative energy. Trying to get some editing done, but for the last month it’s been really hard to care. Hoping you feel much better soon, Lori, and we all get our mojo back!

  3. Landra Graf says:

    Showing up is hard to do! I totally feel ya, and can sympathize/empathize all the way to the next 15 minute ramble. Note: No words for today. 🙁

    But try again next time.

  4. Lynn Crain says:

    Oh boy, oh boy are we ever on the same page! LOL! The post I just put in is all about this, about how life can drain the creativity out of you.

    Mine was an international move and not know where we’re going to live. Add to that, the fact we’ve got to get a house ready for either renting or selling as well and it’s so not good for the writing mojo.

    And it does take time to get back into the groove. I still haven’t made it 100% back from my father’s death 2 years ago. Add this move and all the other chaos, and it puts me still a little further behind.

    IMHO, what has to happen is that a story has to take over your mind again and once that happens, you’re on your way to being a writing guru once again.

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