My Writing ~ @oddlynn3 #LynnCrain #PCers

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I really must apologize for not doing the blog for the last two months. Sure, I have an excuse and a valid one at that but it’s still no reason for not letting you know what was going on.

Recently, I moved from Vienna, Austria back to my hometown in Nevada. Now this may be a temporary move at best but still, like any move, it is a whole new experience. Frankly, I don’t know what I expected because my youngest, his girlfriend, his best friend along with his girlfriend all live in my house.

And I asked for very little when I returned. I wanted the smallest bedroom, a corner of my wonderful office and the walk-in closet in my office. Right now, I feel lucky to have a bedroom. Needless to say, I’m going crazy without a place to write and no place to hang my clothes as my husband has the very small closet in the bedroom. I figured since he had all the suits for work, it was the only solution.

Right now, I’m cranky, unreasonable and argumentative when I really don’t want to be. I live in chaos with 3 dogs, 5 cats and 5 other humans in a house that doesn’t have enough room for all of us. Did I mention, there are only two bathrooms as well?

So, it doesn’t leave much in the way of writing. I don’t have a dedicated place and I’m trying to keep the spark alive by working on my dining room table. Sometimes it’s fine, others it reminds me of the total chaos I live in when the dogs start playing under the table and actually move it. Add to that the cats who start running and the dogs take chase. All in good fun of course.

Except for Harry. Most of the time he’s fabulous with all the critters. My youngest’s cat, Gatsby, and he are great friends. Until the other dogs start playing with him too. Then it becomes a free-for-all that tells me I’m going to lose my mind.

Then I think of some well-loved movies and I know it will be okay. I remember the scene in The Christmas Story where the pack of dogs come in and steal the Christmas bird. Yeah, my home looks like that and when I calm down, I can see the hilarity of the situation. Or how about the many funny scenes from the movie, Yours, Mine and Ours. It doesn’t matter which version you get, it’s all much the same.

The point here is that while my writing reality may suck, the opportunity for ideas and stories and just living life abound. Don’t get me wrong…I loved my life in Vienna for it’s ordered manner and calm…I hated it because I was 7000 miles away from my immediate family and 4500 from our nearest relatives who live in New Hampshire. I wanted to figure out a way to successfully combine them and this is what I got.

I guess in my quietness, I forgot that life isn’t calm, nor as ordered as I was used to. Life is messy with all its foibles and ugliness and just plain chaotic nature. Life ebbs and flows, like a river. Sometimes it’s raging and makes great canyons, others it’s a meandering ribbon that brings life to the farmland but can flood when the sky opens and sometimes, it goes down to a trickle to die a slow death. Yet somehow, it has lived a full, rich life by just being.

Even though, life is throwing me a few, or a lot, of curves I remind myself every day of the wonder of being here in the chaos, surrounded by family and friends, feeling the awesomeness of where I am as I gather more story ideas for the day where I can again sit at my desk and write all day.

See you next month…

About Lynn Crain

Award winning author Lynn Crain has done it all in her life. From nursing to geology, her life experiences have added to her detail rich stories. She loves writing full time as she weaves contemporary, fantasy, futuristic and paranormal tales, tame to erotic, for various publishers. Her home is in the desert southwest and she’s just returned from her latest adventure of living in Vienna, Austria while her husband worked his dream job. You can find her hanging out online at www.lynncrain.blogspot.com, https://www.facebook.com/LynnCrainAuthor, and on Twitter, @oddlynn3. She loves hearing from her readers at lynncrain@cox.net.

Sometimes, I’d Rather *Not* Be Writing

“Don’t like to write, but like having written.”

~Frank Norris (or someone)

I’ve heard this quote time and again; I’ve used this quote many times. It’s just so true of every writer I know. We have writing sprints, we reward ourselves after the act, we tweet our word count.

Writing is hard. As writers, we have a deep passion and love for it. We study the craft, respect the process (whatever that is for us individually), but in the end, we want to have a body of work to show for showing up.

I’ve written on this blog about how I make myself produce writing every day (or at least I try to) and my success. I know now what works for me, but lately, writing hasn’t come so easily.

I had surgery in December and, in January, was hospitalized with sepsis. I spent eight days in and out of 105 degree fever, tired and weak, and unsure if I was even going to make it. I pulled through, in no small part because of support and love from my family and support and prayers from my writing friends here. The only reason I’m sharing this story with you is because after, writing got hard.

I didn’t feel good and I didn’t care about what my characters were doing. I was a quarter of the way through my third 1950s novella and progress didn’t trickle down, it came to a full stop. As I got better and stronger, I didn’t have any desire to pick up where I left off. I wanted to read, to watch television, and to crochet. I almost started to believe my illness had broken something inside of me.

Don’t worry about me, I’m getting my writing mojo back. Last month I began to critique and write again, and I’m forgiving myself for low word counts and the I-don’t-wanna attitude. Because, the thing is, I don’t. But, man, I love to have written. So, now I get it out of the way in the morning. I show up, sometimes in 15-minute increments, pound out some words, and get it out of the way.

Have you ever suffered through anything that seemed to steal your desire to write (or do something else that you love)? Tell me how you recovered and if and how you made your way back.

About Lori Sizemore

Lover of nail polish, pens, her Kindle, and fresh coffee. She likes romance filled with messy, real characters and lots of snarky banter. Reading was (and still is!) her BFF; when she discovered writing she fell in love. Come for the snark. Stay for the story.

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